Wedding Dress
Ten years ago I started blogging simply to share my life as I knew it. You can find that blog here: https://mgelizaga.wordpress.com
So much has changed since then and yet some things remain. Namely, I’m still single. Twenty years and counting. You read that right. Twenty. Years.
When I think about it right now, if I ask, “how?" instead of “why?” I’m led down very different paths.
“Why” leads me to into a shame spiral, questioning myself and what is wrong with me.
“How” simply begs the question and lets me settle in to what is bringing much peace.
Further yet, if I ask myself, “How am I still single?”
My response, is, “Seriously?? HOW am I still single? I’m pretty amazing.”
I do believe that and the last ten years have helped me get there.
I’ve followed my heart around the world and back.
I uncovered a desire I didn't even know was in there but soon as it surfaced, I had to pursue it.
I continue to feel my way through the grief and pain of losing my Dad.
And not only have I followed my heart but I’ve taken every opportunity to heal it. Most recently, this combination took us to the Philippines.
So there you have it, that’s a short and sweet recap.
My last post here dates back to July 2020 and my hope is for more consistency because I find myself at a crossroad just like what compelled me to start blogging 10 years ago.
I write because it helps me navigate my steps. But also because some days I find myself asking questions that start with “why” which never serves me but writing always does.
So here we go.
This is me. 44 years old. Single Woman. Single Mom.
And I may still be single but one doesn’t need any reason to wear her Mom’s wedding dress, other than to remind her how beautiful and powerful her life has been and will continue to be.
